Roma Ligocka has lived multiple lives over the last fifty years - artist, theatrical designer, bohemian nomad, political activist, wife, mother - but she was first 'the girl in the red coat' . Famously picked out in red in the black and white footage of Spielberg's 'Schindler's List' it was only when she saw the image of herself on screen that she realised the extent of her failure to come to terms with the anguish of her childhood. This powerful memoir revisits the horror of her early years and reveals how far its effects have reached throughout her life. Leading an apparently successful life, she has nonetheless often been at the mercy of depressions. Now, after 50 years, she is able to write about honestly examining the scars of a traumatic childhood and getting past sorrow while still acknowledging the truth of the past.